My round. Who's winning?

I feel that I am starting to become more like I should be, the little guy behind the controls in my head. For some reason I have, or hopefully had, alot of self doubt, hopefully those who know me will agree this is melting away. Time will be the judge, but i will try to beleive that I am destined for great things. (great as I see them at least).

A plan of sorts for the next few years is forming. It involves getting stronger. faster, more skilled with an absolute dedication that I don't know i have yet (working on it). In this niche field of performance and effects creation I have chosen, there is no choice but to be the best at what I do, to carve a simon sized niche that can't be ignored. It is be acheiving something along these lines that I can get the farm started, and provide facilities that will allow myself and all the other broken circles to connect and create a stronger whole. eventally i'll then retire and end up an ineresting old man that lived on