Just the thought that i can make a character change just by changing thoughts and patterns to be a better person is a drug itself. i am starting to feel more and more like i have not only made a right decision but one that is going to change my life... just by a simple choice to change... it didnt cost anything, i dont have to go to a doctor to get it, it doesnt come in the mail.. it was a simple thought, a moment of claraty that is going to make things a bit better for me and the people who will eventually end up in my life. Kind of addicting