I live my life like a fairy tale but my heads very much in reality<3

I'm scared of dying, and not trying, scared of getting old,
I'm scared of telling lies case karma comes and eats me whole,
I'm scared to think about the devil case he takes my soul,
I'm scared of baddies, scared of nightmares, scared I'll loose control,
I don't like druggies, don't like bad men, don't like bitchy girls,
Don't think it's healthy holding grudges that won't save the world,
I don't like nasty words, they hurt me like you'd never know,
But don't think I won't put on a smiley face and do the show,
I hate that bad boyfriends wear some beautiful disguises,
I hate it when your order comes and they've messed up all your sizes,
Hate that I'm always late, hate that I'm messy too,
I hate that I have got it in me to start feeling blue,
I'm scared to wake up one day and find that my bubble's burst,
I'm scared that someone else has got the new collection first,
I'm scared of seeing ghosts, I'm scare