Sophie Household

I'm on this journey to find out Is there life after anorexia nervosa?

For seven years everything hurt too much.
I stripped life down to three things:
Exercise
Eat
Sleep

That was it, nothing else.
Each hour was anxiety filled as my entire happiness depended on the success of maximising exercise and minimising eat and sleep.
I was safe. I could control my happiness on my own.
I had some tremendous highs when I was a success.
And tremendous lows when my body gave out or I wasn't allowed to keep going.

Life was simple. Life was empty. Life was lonely.
There's no room for anyone else unless they're willing to run to the grave with you.

I like this quote below to keep me going.
Coz without anorexia, life is complicated and painful and out of my control. But life with anorexia isn't worth it.

Is there life after anorexia nervosa?

At the lowest points of my life,
Each day seemed like a year.
At night I could feel my body being "eaten up",
Yet during the day I would still run around.