i am who i am, those who know me, know that. i have 2 grown children, jacob mattingly,24, and jordan curtsinger ralston,21. i have a step-grandson, whom i love like my own, tyler,4, and a beautiful granddaughter, kendal,18 mos. old. i was marrried for 11 yrs. to rick curtsinger, divorced. i remarried in 2003 to brian lewis (one of my many mistakes) i have had alot of ups and downs in my life, made many friends and a few enemies, but i only see my life to continue to get better, because becoming a grandparent has a way of changing your entire outlook on life. like i tell my kids, everyone makes mistakes and poor choices, at times, but you have to pick up the pieces, fix what you broke, hold your head up high and ask for god's forgiveness(because he forgives us all if we ask), and do whatever it takes to move forward and never repeat those mistakes. none of us are perfect, but if you always look back at the negative things in your past and let others continue to remind you of it, t