I am messy, depressed, introverted, nihilistic, fragile, dark, bizarre, reclusive, weird, irritable, unassertive, unsympathetic, observer, worrying, phobic, suspicious, unproductive, avoidant, negative, bad at saving money, emotionally sensitive, submissive, daydreamer.
I also feel invisible, do not make friends easily, reveal little about self, feel undesirable, dislike leadership, frequently second guess self, do not like to stand out, dislike large parties.