i make my own destiny

mst have heard dat saying............."big things cme in small packages.................
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.Just me...
In the darkness of the night
when everyone sleeps...
alone in a room..
my heart weeps...
while everyone dreams
i am wide awake...
thinking of the loves and losses..
the pain and the heartbreak..
people look at me n say i m shy...
they do not know
that i'm afraid to try...
to open the doors
to my broken heart...
to let them see
every bit and part...
coz i know how it feels..
to be hurt n brood..
to be left alone..
to be battered and used...
sum think i'm crazy...
others feel i'm wierd...
i need to be pushed...
to be happy and cheered...
no one realises...
that even though i smile...
how much pain hides...
behind the joy in my eyes
every moment,every place...
i continously speak..
but thats just a way to keep the tears
from falling down my cheek...
sumtimes i hate the world...
at times myself i hate...
with a life so sad...