Learned that my choices dictate my level of love, success, happiness, and pain to myself and/or others. Must show it all to reveal my true self. I will not apologize for loving wholeheartedly. I'm not perfect but strive to make changes that are needed. I've been a glutton for punishment if when the good came it was amazing. No more fireballs in gasoline G-strings because if the people who I want to acknowledge the changes and grow with me do not notice, have I done so in vain? Grow in the right direction for my own approval and self-validation or hurt is sure to come waiting on others to validate me, my actions, or my feelings. Appreciate every experience (good, bad, or indifferent). Most things are built, including strength...eventually. I will cope. I am learning. Thank you.