"Ecstasy is hard to describe. It's like falling softly into a pool of crystal mountain water. Floating on your back circular beneath vibrant sky, deciphering codes in the clouds. Spinning dizzy fast. It isn't at all like going clear out of your head lunatic mad, throwing yourself in front of a runaway train insane, hallucinating black widows and black helicopters behind you crazy. It's a lot more like jumping into your own brain, ferreting what's inside accepting past failures, freeing self destructive demons, forgiving yourself and those you love, even those you despise.