I just lost the love of my life on Thursday, September 13, 2012. Brian Ellis truley is my soulmate. I say is and not was because I believe and feel that he is still with me. I know that he is the 1 and only for me. What we had together was that once in a lifetime, 100% genuine, unconditional, true love that most people live their whole lives dreaming of. I am just thankful that I did get to spend the last few months of his life with him. Those were the happiest months of my life and am lucky to have been able to share that with him. I don't know why he did what he did, only he knows that. There are some questions that will forever be unanswered. We were truly happy together and I know where his and my own heart lays. No matter what whoever changed his facebook status to, Brian left it how he wanted it to be, and a status change on a computer could never change the way he felt about me or the way I feel about him. This is by far the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with in my entir