trees awake

in the moment of making this mix, i was not "feeling" good about it....
.......the vibe, technicality, and generally not excited about it
......almost deleting it before even giving it a listen, i decided to take it riding, as i often do,
the exercise state of mind mixed with snow surfing flow state mixed with music can give clarity......
and what do you know, the mix doesn't suck, i was wrong
what i was "feeling" before, during and after the creative process was only inside
and not an actual "reality" outside of myself
yes, my feelings are real but.....it was a lie.....i know this, because i recorded it
the mix is fine, it does not suck......i am fine, and i don't suck

So i post this mix in practice, to acknowledge my privilege to be who i am
and to change the stories i tell myself.