Losing Marbles

I feel so lost
On the cross I bleed
Every one of my dreams
Stopped across the street

And I screamed and called
To get off this leash
Much I struggled
With my burden
But could not get free

Uh-oh

Nightmares in the darkness
Nightmares when I wake
Every time I close my eyes
My whole world starts to shake

There's something in my heart here
That questions every beat
Scrutinize me
Exorcise me
From what's haunting me

I fear I'll never be whole
That I'll just never quite be right
I'm just stuck here in the doorway
Slowly fading out of sight

Are my days no roller coaster
Did I just waste my time
Losing marbles by the jarful
What a waste of life I've been

I fear I lost
On the battlefield
Every one of my bullets
Had poor accuracy

Now my inner demon
Is just a part of me
I'm insane
But well aware
I'm a catastrophe

oh yes

I'm frightened of the summit
I'm frightened peering in in
I don't know where to put the bucket
To catch all these leaking drips

Oh, there's something in my wiring
That th