Combat Stress

I can see no win
I can see no friend
Where do I begin
And where do I end?
What have I achieved
What do I believe?
Am I under siege
When will I be free?

Silence from bullets
The blood won't wipe away
Scars, scrapes and bruises
The blood won't wipe away
Pulled up from the roots
The blood won't wipe away
Under the duvet
The blood won't wipe away

It stains my soul
It takes its toll
It shakes my core
It makes me cold

It drains my ammo
Maims and harms
It pains my heart
It breaks my camouflage

Where do I fit in
How can I find peace?
Will the pain desist
Will the memories cease?
How can I atone
Would I retrace the steps?
Could I break the mold
Can I retake the test?

Silence from bullets
The blood won't wipe away
Scars, scrapes and bruises
The blood won't wipe away
Pulled up from the roots
The blood won't wipe away
Under the duvet
The blood won't wipe away

It hurts to think
I pause I sink
Can't trust instinct
I'm spread too thin

In days of war
I gave my all
Now in the dawn
Into my grave