Buck

I made this set to be a Neverending Last Dance with my husband Ted, who I lost in June of 2019, to several autoimmune disorders. I've been forced to survive the last few years, so I am just now coming into a place that's safe enough to look at my intense, abysmal grief. It feels like it just happened. The track Show by Curbi appears as a refrain several times in many guises throughout the mix. When i hear that sorrowful but graceful chord progression, I imagine myself a courtly gentleman, bowing to him in tails, asking for a dance, and he, bowing back in kind. With this set recorded as a crystallization of my grief, I can bow to him as many times as I need to do it, until I die and join him with the Ancestors.. The entire set functions as a delicate tango between spirit and flesh, and I must have it looped in my mind so that I don't get pulled into the undertow of my own grief.