What I have won since my illness:
It's more of a spiritual discovery as something tangible that I have gained since my illness.
Before that I was just me. And I felt very alone.
However, since this memorable evening when I came home, and God spoke loud and clear to me, a kind of higher consciousness has been awakened in me.
Unfortunately, however, I was totally mad at this time and it was too much at once. One could say that stimulus flooded ...
It took a long time until I could deal with it.
And since I am no longer the same.
It is this strange creature, of which everyone speaks, but no one has ever get to see. It lurks in secret just waiting that someone is coming to him, and before you slips up it's gone again.